twelfth Tuesday we talk about forgiveness

I remember I blamed myself for my grandma death. She had a heart Attack but I could have sent her to hospital earlier. That was my greatest regret.
I learned to forgive myself now.

To start a new chapter, let’s look at stoic philosophy

The chief task in life is simply this: to identify and separate matters so that I can say clearly to myself which are externals not under my control, and which have to do with the choices I actually control. Where then do I look for good and evil? Not to uncontrollable externals, but within myself to the choices that are my own…

This is a powerful way of differentiating what we cannot change and what we can change.

My grandma is already dead. No amount of blame and tears will bring her back. It’s just life she died of a heart Attack. A slow death of chest pain. By the time my mom brought her to the hospital, it was already too late. She told us before her death she didn’t want to die in the 7th month of the lunar calendar. However, she still passed away.

I still remember my grandma was taken off life support. I hope the nurse were gentle with her because she may still feel pain.

Her hands were clasped in front of her chest. Already frozen, she was brought to a place where they prepared her body for the funeral.

We can’t determine when we will pass away, but we can determine how we live this life.

My grandma died of regrets too. Being the second Wife, she thought her heart was bad because of that.

Let’s forgive ourselves for any wrong doings and start anew.